Cold Case Love: The confused statement. Part One.

Unlock the the lock of this ball & chain on my left leg. Dig up the key we buried on Luv Day & break free tonight. Hold me tight and kiss your hand & wave a bittersweet goodbye. Left your car in piercing tears yet just 2 hours ago entered in such excitement.
The addiction is starting to wear off. I gave it up for you. Your voice shaky when I told you. You inhaled disappointment.  "Dont do it" you say.. I cried when I saw your face. I had to crush it & never give in in lighting it again. Every drag was for the regret but watching it burning & wearing away was only killing everything inside of me I wanted. the goals, dreams.. the love. me you & that non existent ring
The high heels, make-up, nail polish, jewelry & clothing I own don't mean anything when I am with you. The ciggies, the drinks, Those are the things I wish I never got into.
This so called love, was a crime & we were breaking the law. Thankful to those girls who helped me unwrap that red, big bow you put over my eyes on Luv Day on that beach.. I can breathe again.

Knowing that you have feelings for my sister well, that makes me feel so useless..& stupid. It was your loss not mine. I'm moving forward. I'm going to be somebody. I'm going to finally show you who I am.

Scarborough Beach, WA.

14th of February 2010